Esoteric Liberica

I learned an important lesson this evening. All about being a responsible person. Let this serve as a record and testimony to myself and others like me.

I did something completely irresponsible. I was thinking more for myself than looking long term and at the bigger picture. No, I am not making any excuses for myself nor is this an entry to apologize.

This is about the attitude I have taken and how irresponsible I am. What transpired today clearly shows that I do not think far enough into the future and the responsibilities that come with it. I am glad I realized this now and not later.

I also understand that I am not as strong willed as I thought I was. But ever since I met her, She has opened my eyes to a lot of things which I have chosen to ignore in the past. Well, not anymore. If this is going to work, it will take a lot of hard work, commitment and strength on my part. I am prepared to go the distance. I know that to succeed I must ensure that I have the will power to do it and get it right.

I do love her very much. More than most people can imagine I suppose. I will endeavour to make this relationship work with everything I have within my power to do so. I must dispel my old thinking. This is no longer about me. This is now about us. I have come to realize that what I do now will affect what will happen in the future. If I want happiness, security and a family, I must start thinking and acting as a responsible adult and not just an individual who only thinks about his own well being and personal satisfaction.

So in every aspect, I look at this as my own personal failure which I will rectify. Why? Because I want this to work.